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第一百七十三章
不过夏垚想的很好,却还是抵不过意外的发生。
当夏垚被突然告知父亲被黑狼打成重伤的那一刻,他就再也没有办法淡定了,尽管他知道黑狼一天没有消失,他的日子就没有办法过的平稳,可是这也不能作为他接受父亲受伤的理由。
夏垚犹豫着不知道该怎样和林乖乖开口,他不想离开她,不想离开儿子,更不想离开这个家,可是这一次他根本没有选择的余地,对于林乖乖和孩子,他有责任,可是对于父亲和天银山,他也一样又不可推卸的责任,是他无法推卸的,也是无法逃脱的。
夏垚打发了乌龟小绿,让他先回去,艰难的说着随后就追上他,小绿一脸的疑惑,不明白为什么夏垚总是好像有很多牵绊,就算天大的事情,他也不会立即和自己离开,不过这次却没有像上次一样义正言辞的数落夏垚,因为他在夏垚的脸上看到了纠结与犹豫,他想,也许夏垚真的有什么难言之隐吧。
这个深夜,夏垚没有再一次偷偷的离开,他坐在林乖乖身边,默默的等着她醒来,他有很多话要对她说,却不知道从何说起。````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````
“你怎么起得这么早,外面好像下雨了耶。”
林乖乖打开朦胧的眼帘,入眼的便是夏垚无可挑剔的面颊,有些严肃,她并没有在意,夏垚一向是有起*气的,特别是在有雨水敲打着窗户的清晨。
“乖乖,我父亲重伤,我得回去一趟。”
夏垚已经没有时间,细细的和林乖乖讲述那惨痛的过程,他有更多的关于他和林乖乖的话要说。
林乖乖微微的怔住,僵硬的身体,让她看起来那样可怜,她很久才找到自己的声音。
“能不能带我一起去?”
林乖乖捉住夏垚的手,用力的握紧,好像他下一刻就会消失一样。
“对不起,这次不行。”
夏垚没有挣脱,可是他知道他的拒绝,比姿态的抗拒,更为打击人。
“你要去多久,几天,几个星期,还是几个月?”````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````
林乖乖沉默了一会儿,试探的问着,她害怕夏垚有答案,却不是她想要的那个答案,他更害怕夏垚没有答案,无尽的猜测和等待更加折磨人,特别是要经历第二次的她。
“我不知道,乖乖,我很想说我还尽快赶回来,可是这次我没办法和你保证,我不知道父亲的伤势如何,不知道天银山的局势如何,更不知道,我这一去,是不是还能安全的赶回来,可我还是想自私的请你等我回来,行不行?”
夏垚没有胆量许下承诺,他害怕自己真的会一起不回,就像多年前他也是这般打算的,随意他偷偷的离开,不想要和林乖乖执手相看泪眼,此刻,他勇敢了一点,他想要和林乖乖说清楚,却不是因为他比从前更有信心了,而是他心里更加惶恐不安而已。
“夏垚,我们是不是缘分太浅了,为什么好日子一来,我们就得分开呢,我真的还能等到你回家吗?”
林乖乖看着夏垚一会儿坚决,一会纠结的表情,突然笑了,只是那笑意却并没有抵达眼底,她在嘲笑,不只是夏垚,还有自己,命运果然会捉弄人,一次又一次,从不停歇。
“不许胡说,我们的缘分深着呢,不然世界这么大,怎么偏偏我们就会遇到、相爱、结婚、生子,乖乖,我会撑到最后一口气,永远都不会放弃我们的家,你为我祈祷,好不好?”````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````
夏垚胆怯了,原来他并没有那么勇敢,他没办法做到大义凌然,没办法坦然的面对生死,林乖乖只一句缘分浅,他就有些受不了,他很自私,想要霸占住林乖乖的一切,哪怕他真的从这个世界消失不见,他也只想要林乖乖为他守下去。
“夏垚,上次,你离开的时候,也下着雨,你悄无声息的从我的世界消失不见,我找遍了所有的地方,都找不见,这一次,虽然你没有不告而别,我却比上一次更难受,你知道为什么吗,因为你此刻给我的感觉是破釜沉舟、放手一搏,你已经做了最坏的打算,而你的打算里,大概我和夏念只能排到最后,夏垚,你知道吗,没有人喜欢被人安排着生活的,你怎么就这么确定,我会一直等下去呢,人说吃一堑长一智,而我给你的感觉是不是,就和傻子一样,一个永远都不会反抗的傻子。”
林乖乖想,这个男人果然是自私的,他聪明的利用着自己的爱来帮助她,利用她的情纠缠住她,他做出一副不畏前路的样子,说着漂亮的话,不过就是因为深知他们相爱,他的信任和请求,不过是因为,他足够了解她。````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````
可是林乖乖却受够了这样被牵着鼻子走的生活,她爱他,从未停止过,可是她却想要让他知道,她的爱,不是证明他的聪明才智的战利品,不是他证明人生成败的证据,她的爱是责任也是负担,她的爱要有处安放,不能被糟蹋。
“乖乖,你别这样,我看着心疼,你这样,让我怎么能安心的走。”
夏垚显然被这样的林乖乖吓到了,他从没有看见过这样尖刻的林乖乖,即使他知道她只是想要刺激他,要他活下去。
“我为什么要委屈自己,要你安心的离开,你就是应该记住此刻属于我的哀伤,你要时时刻刻记得,有一个女人被你伤的体无完肤,我就是要提醒你,你对我和孩子,还有不可推卸的责任,夏垚,别以为自己是个完人,连死亡都可以直面面对,连后事都安排的妥妥当当,可是在我看来,那只能证明你的懦弱,彻头彻尾的胆小鬼。”
林乖乖的确有些控制不住自己的情绪,她需要一个发泄的出口,而夏垚当然是最好的对象,一切由他而起,当然该是由他承担,而林乖乖还有私心,她常想,是不是她真的太省事了,他才会一次又一次肆无忌惮的丢下她,是不是她的爱低微又可怜,他才如此忽略,是不是她该烦他吵他,他才会深刻的记住她。````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````
“乖乖,不是的,我······”
夏垚要解释的,他要表达自己的爱,表达自己的... -->>
第一百七十三章
不过夏垚想的很好,却还是抵不过意外的发生。
当夏垚被突然告知父亲被黑狼打成重伤的那一刻,他就再也没有办法淡定了,尽管他知道黑狼一天没有消失,他的日子就没有办法过的平稳,可是这也不能作为他接受父亲受伤的理由。
夏垚犹豫着不知道该怎样和林乖乖开口,他不想离开她,不想离开儿子,更不想离开这个家,可是这一次他根本没有选择的余地,对于林乖乖和孩子,他有责任,可是对于父亲和天银山,他也一样又不可推卸的责任,是他无法推卸的,也是无法逃脱的。
夏垚打发了乌龟小绿,让他先回去,艰难的说着随后就追上他,小绿一脸的疑惑,不明白为什么夏垚总是好像有很多牵绊,就算天大的事情,他也不会立即和自己离开,不过这次却没有像上次一样义正言辞的数落夏垚,因为他在夏垚的脸上看到了纠结与犹豫,他想,也许夏垚真的有什么难言之隐吧。
这个深夜,夏垚没有再一次偷偷的离开,他坐在林乖乖身边,默默的等着她醒来,他有很多话要对她说,却不知道从何说起。````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````
“你怎么起得这么早,外面好像下雨了耶。”
林乖乖打开朦胧的眼帘,入眼的便是夏垚无可挑剔的面颊,有些严肃,她并没有在意,夏垚一向是有起*气的,特别是在有雨水敲打着窗户的清晨。
“乖乖,我父亲重伤,我得回去一趟。”
夏垚已经没有时间,细细的和林乖乖讲述那惨痛的过程,他有更多的关于他和林乖乖的话要说。
林乖乖微微的怔住,僵硬的身体,让她看起来那样可怜,她很久才找到自己的声音。
“能不能带我一起去?”
林乖乖捉住夏垚的手,用力的握紧,好像他下一刻就会消失一样。
“对不起,这次不行。”
夏垚没有挣脱,可是他知道他的拒绝,比姿态的抗拒,更为打击人。
“你要去多久,几天,几个星期,还是几个月?”````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````
林乖乖沉默了一会儿,试探的问着,她害怕夏垚有答案,却不是她想要的那个答案,他更害怕夏垚没有答案,无尽的猜测和等待更加折磨人,特别是要经历第二次的她。
“我不知道,乖乖,我很想说我还尽快赶回来,可是这次我没办法和你保证,我不知道父亲的伤势如何,不知道天银山的局势如何,更不知道,我这一去,是不是还能安全的赶回来,可我还是想自私的请你等我回来,行不行?”
夏垚没有胆量许下承诺,他害怕自己真的会一起不回,就像多年前他也是这般打算的,随意他偷偷的离开,不想要和林乖乖执手相看泪眼,此刻,他勇敢了一点,他想要和林乖乖说清楚,却不是因为他比从前更有信心了,而是他心里更加惶恐不安而已。
“夏垚,我们是不是缘分太浅了,为什么好日子一来,我们就得分开呢,我真的还能等到你回家吗?”
林乖乖看着夏垚一会儿坚决,一会纠结的表情,突然笑了,只是那笑意却并没有抵达眼底,她在嘲笑,不只是夏垚,还有自己,命运果然会捉弄人,一次又一次,从不停歇。
“不许胡说,我们的缘分深着呢,不然世界这么大,怎么偏偏我们就会遇到、相爱、结婚、生子,乖乖,我会撑到最后一口气,永远都不会放弃我们的家,你为我祈祷,好不好?”````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````
夏垚胆怯了,原来他并没有那么勇敢,他没办法做到大义凌然,没办法坦然的面对生死,林乖乖只一句缘分浅,他就有些受不了,他很自私,想要霸占住林乖乖的一切,哪怕他真的从这个世界消失不见,他也只想要林乖乖为他守下去。
“夏垚,上次,你离开的时候,也下着雨,你悄无声息的从我的世界消失不见,我找遍了所有的地方,都找不见,这一次,虽然你没有不告而别,我却比上一次更难受,你知道为什么吗,因为你此刻给我的感觉是破釜沉舟、放手一搏,你已经做了最坏的打算,而你的打算里,大概我和夏念只能排到最后,夏垚,你知道吗,没有人喜欢被人安排着生活的,你怎么就这么确定,我会一直等下去呢,人说吃一堑长一智,而我给你的感觉是不是,就和傻子一样,一个永远都不会反抗的傻子。”
林乖乖想,这个男人果然是自私的,他聪明的利用着自己的爱来帮助她,利用她的情纠缠住她,他做出一副不畏前路的样子,说着漂亮的话,不过就是因为深知他们相爱,他的信任和请求,不过是因为,他足够了解她。````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````
可是林乖乖却受够了这样被牵着鼻子走的生活,她爱他,从未停止过,可是她却想要让他知道,她的爱,不是证明他的聪明才智的战利品,不是他证明人生成败的证据,她的爱是责任也是负担,她的爱要有处安放,不能被糟蹋。
“乖乖,你别这样,我看着心疼,你这样,让我怎么能安心的走。”
夏垚显然被这样的林乖乖吓到了,他从没有看见过这样尖刻的林乖乖,即使他知道她只是想要刺激他,要他活下去。
“我为什么要委屈自己,要你安心的离开,你就是应该记住此刻属于我的哀伤,你要时时刻刻记得,有一个女人被你伤的体无完肤,我就是要提醒你,你对我和孩子,还有不可推卸的责任,夏垚,别以为自己是个完人,连死亡都可以直面面对,连后事都安排的妥妥当当,可是在我看来,那只能证明你的懦弱,彻头彻尾的胆小鬼。”
林乖乖的确有些控制不住自己的情绪,她需要一个发泄的出口,而夏垚当然是最好的对象,一切由他而起,当然该是由他承担,而林乖乖还有私心,她常想,是不是她真的太省事了,他才会一次又一次肆无忌惮的丢下她,是不是她的爱低微又可怜,他才如此忽略,是不是她该烦他吵他,他才会深刻的记住她。````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````
“乖乖,不是的,我······”
夏垚要解释的,他要表达自己的爱,表达自己的... -->>
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